作为一个理想主义的、渴望知识的大学毕业生和志向远大的作家，我厌倦了从一个办公室职位跳到另一个。
As an idealistic, knowledge-hungry college graduate and aspiring writer, I had grown tired of hopping from one office gig to the next.
当时是2000年，科技正在蓬勃发展。
It was 2000 and technology was in full bloom.
我也想在数字淘金热中捞一笔。
I wanted to cash in on the digital gold rush.
与我在德克萨斯州奥斯汀的很多朋友一样，我在想：为什么不加入互联网经济呢？
Like many of my friends in Austin, Tex., I figured, why not join the internet economy?
我看到广告，应聘了一家拿到风投的教育初创公司的一个职位。
I answered an ad for a job at a venture-backed start-up company with a focus on education.
除了提供股票期权，这份工作还承诺提供一个创造性发展平台——除非我傻，否则不可能忽略这一点。
More than just offering stock options, the job promised a creative launching pad that I would have been foolish to ignore.
面试之后，我愉快地接受了这家公司的工作机会。
After interviewing for the position, I happily accepted the company’s offer.
在公司的每一天都是充满色彩的感官体验——办公室涂了17种颜色——还有香薰蜡烛、智力游戏和瑜伽球。
Each day at the company was a sensory experience filled with color — the office was painted in 17 of them — fragrant candles, brain games and yoga balls.
每一周我都进入令人兴奋的项目，解决问题，开发新技术，最棒的是与一群才华横溢、聪明敬业的同事互动。
Each week pulled me into stimulating projects, problems to solve, new technology and, best of all, interaction with a team of talented, intelligent and dedicated co-workers.
我的抱负越来越大。
My ambition swelled.
我迅速获得提升，在裁员浪潮中存活了下来。
I hustled my way up the chain of command and managed to survive layoffs.
数月之后，我发现自己领导着一个研发和市场推广团队，成员中有设计师、程序员、制作人、行业专家、销售人员和撰稿人。
In a matter of months, I found myself leading development and marketing for a team of designers, programmers, producers, subject matter experts, sales staff and writers.
我经常一周工作70个小时——如果赶工期的话，工时会更长。
I would easily clock 70 hours of work a week — more if we were on a deadline.
我经常是办公室第一个到，最后一个走的。
I was often the first in the office and the last to leave.
但我很高兴把自己完全奉献给工作。
But I was more than happy to give my job my all.
为了赶进度，我把自己投入到一系列自我折磨中，包括喝很多咖啡、用打盹代替真正的睡眠。
To keep up the pace, I put myself through a series of self-imposed tortures that included overcaffeinating and taking catnaps in place of real sleep.
当时我26岁，觉得自己不可战胜。
I was 26 and felt invincible.
我觉得自己可以承受这样的压力，所以不理会反复出现的头疼、视力模糊和疲倦。
I figured I could handle the pressure, so I ignored repeated headaches, blurred vision and general exhaustion.
2001年夏天的一个上午，我到达办公室，觉得右眼嗡了一下，双手出现刺痛麻麻的感觉，我以为这只是早上犯迷糊而已。
Early one summer morning in 2001, I arrived at the office and felt a slight buzzing in my right eye and some tingly numbness in my hands, which I dismissed as mere morning grogginess.
过了一会儿，在团队会议上，我站起来讲话。
A little later, I stood up to make a presentation at a team meeting.
一个同事后来跟我说，她看见我嘴歪了，说话吐字不清。
A colleague later told me she saw my mouth droop as my words started slurring.
之后我所知道的就是，有人对我说：你中风了。
The next thing I knew, someone was saying: You’ve had a stroke.
我们必须做个扫描，看看出了什么问题。
We have to run a scan to figure out what’s going on.
你明白吗？
Do you understand?
那时我才20多岁，大脑已经受到了损伤。
I was in my 20s, and my brain was damaged.
我无法把自己的想法清楚地表达给医生或护士。
I couldn’t articulate my thoughts to the doctor or nurses.
那些话就在那儿，我清楚地看见它们在我脑子里，但就是无法把它们连成语言。
While the words were there and I clearly saw them in my mind, I couldn’t connect them to speech.
我的手仍有麻刺感。脑部扫描后，我连签名都困难，因为我不记得怎么拼写了。
My hands were still tingling, and I was unable to sign my name after my brain scan, because I couldn’t remember how to spell it.
第二天晚些时候，我出院了。出租车司机问我，你去哪儿？我根本想不起来自己住在哪条街。
When I was discharged from the hospital late the next day, the cabdriver asked me, Where do I take you? I couldn’t remember the name of my street.
我把出院文件递给他，上面有我的地址。到家后，我睡了很长时间。
I handed him the discharge paperwork with my address on it, arrived home and slept for a long while.
当时我还那么年轻，从没想过自己会中风。
Being so young, I had not even considered that having a stroke was a possibility.
不过后来得知，中风在年轻人中的发病率在上升。
But I have since learned that they are on the rise among younger people.
医生并没有说劳累过度是我中风的直接原因，但是他说，压力、过劳或疲惫可能加重了病情。
My doctor did not directly link my stroke to overwork, but said it could have been aggravated by stress, overexertion and exhaustion.
出院后，我对失去控制感到无助和丢脸。
After being released from the hospital, I felt helpless and humiliated over my loss of control.
我不可战胜的光环破碎了。
My aura of invincibility had shattered.
但是我慢慢开始恢复。
But I slowly recovered.
每天晚上，我练习拼写长单词，比如arachnophobia（蜘蛛恐惧症）和Czechoslovakia（捷克斯洛伐克）；做复杂的数学题；重新学习遭到破坏的记忆力。
Every night, I’d practice spelling polysyllabic words, like arachnophobia and Czechoslovakia, backward; I’d do complex math problems; I worked on relearning memories that had been disrupted.
我做瑜伽和冥想。
I practiced yoga and meditation.
我越接受自己不完美的大脑，越能获得满足感。
The more I accepted my imperfect mind, the more I settled into a place of contentment.
多亏同事们的支持，我重返工作岗位，不过不可避免的，我每天疯狂的冲刺变成了爬行。
Thanks to the support of my colleagues, I returned to work, but by necessity my frenetic daily sprint had to slow to a crawl.
现在，我抽出时间停歇和思考——结果，我的工作和生活变得更为丰富了。
Now I made time for pauses and reflection — and my work, and my life, became richer as a result.
由于那次中风，我重新设定了自己的职业重心。
Because of the stroke, I reset my professional priorities.
对每一个新的事业机会——从写书，到开公司，到给不同的项目提供咨询——我懂得了设定日程和避免过多承诺的重要性。
With each new career opportunity — from writing books to starting a company to consulting on various projects — I learned the value of a calendar and how to avoid overcommitment.
我开始拥有自己的日程，并按之行事。
I began to own my calendar and live by it.
我把一切都列入日程：工作承诺、锻炼、散步、社交聚会，甚至睡眠时间。
I scheduled everything in it: work commitments, exercise, walks, social gatherings and even sleep time.
直到今天，我依然这样做。
I continue to do so to this day.
现在，我的大脑每天有个重置时间，通常是每天下午四五点钟。
I now have a daily mental reset hour that is usually every afternoon around 4 or 5.
我和妻子一起散步，我呼吸、微笑、冥想，跟陌生人和动物打招呼，写日记或着画画。
I walk with my wife, I breathe, I smile, I meditate and say hello to random people and animals, and I write in a journal or draw.
到现在，我手上已经有了好几个公司，而且经常出差，但我依然挤时间从数字世界脱身，投入真正重要的事情：陪伴我爱的人、创新、到大自然中去。
Even today, as I run multiple ventures and travel frequently, I still make time to untangle from the digital world and plug back into what really matters: time with people I love, time for creativity and time in nature.
至于我的事业，我把它看做一系列有意义项目的叠加，不会让任何项目太耗费精力或让人难以承受。
As for my career, I look at it as a series of meaningful projects stacked one on top of another, none of them too consuming or overwhelming.
负担过重是如今的工作方式。
Overload is the way of work these days.
我们当中那些雄心勃勃者难免成为拼命三郎，这很危险——我的经历说明了这一点。
It’s how the ambitious among us are hard-wired, and it’s quite dangerous, as my experience showed.
但是，如果我们不竭尽全力去追求把我们向前推进的机会，那也很危险。
But it’s also dangerous for us not to fully pursue — and give our all to — opportunities that move us forward.
这就是我们在今天的创意经济中所面临的动态张力。
This is the dynamic tension we face in today’s creative economy.
如果我们想得到更多，就得付出更多，但我们必须知道在这个过程中，可能需要放弃什么。
If we want more, we have to give more, but we have to stay aware of what we might give up in the process.
雄心勃勃固然好，但我们必须学会倾听提醒，偶尔后退一步，放缓脚步。
While it’s great to be ambitious, we must learn to listen for cues, step back and slow down the pace at times.
我们需要学会如何同时为谋生和生活创造空间。
We need to learn how to create space for both making a living and making a life.