哪种情感是你最想逃避的？
Which Emotion Do You Hide from the Most?
担心。
Worry.
正如萨帕塔所说，担心是无用的情绪。
As Dushka Zapata says, worry is a useless emotion.
它起不了任何作用只能使你感到紧张，我很讨厌担心，所以这是我最想逃避的。
It does nothing but stress you out, and I hate that, so I hide from it.
为什么妈妈至今还没回你短信?
Why hasn’t Mom texted you back by now?
成千上万张恐怖场景穿过我的脑袋。如果她在某处倒下了怎么办？如果她需要我的帮助怎么办？如果她被某个人袭击了怎么办？
A million morbid images spill through my brain. What if she collapsed somewhere? What if she needs my help? What if she’s been attacked by someone?
她很好，我反复告诉自己。
She’s fine, I assure myself.
接着，更多糟糕的场景出现在我的脑海里。之后她回我短信：“我在门口。”
More awful situations fill my head. Then she texts, I’m by the door.
我叹出一口气。
I breathe a sigh of relief.
恐惧。
Fear.
害怕失去生命中那些对我很重要的人。
Fear of losing the imperative people of my life, who truly matter to me.
我已经由于突然的原因失去了一部分最亲的人。我没有办法再忍受失去其他亲人。很多次我试着去忽略它，但是有时当我听到某个亲人的死讯时我的整双手都湿透了。
I've already lost some of my dear ones in an abrupt manner. I don't have more mettle to bear losing someone again. Many times, I try to overlook it, but sometimes, my hands become moist if I hear about someone's death.
我从不逃避自己的情绪。我承认我可以感受到我的情绪，但我并不喜欢感受它们。我知道情绪会影响我的处理信息并作出符合逻辑的决定的能力，所以我不喜欢这样。我会强烈地克制自己的情绪，希望它们不会出现。
I don’t really hide from my emotions. I acknowledge that I feel them, but I don’t like feeling them. I know that emotions affect my ability to process information and make a logical decisions, and I don’t like this. I severely crush strong emotions that and hope they don’t come out again.
但如果要选一个情绪，我认为应该是愤怒吧。愤怒可以使你做出一些你并不想做的蠢事。我努力地抑制自己的愤怒，努力地克制一些激烈的言辞。我努力地等待情绪消退后再去谈论问题所在。
But if I had to choose an emotion, I guess it’d have to be anger. Anger makes you do the stupidest things that you don’t mean. I try very hard to curb my anger, and I try very hard to hold the furious words in. I try to wait until the feelings pass before talking about what the problem was.